so things are starting to progress but at the same time i feel like i am regressing. i want you to know you are all in my prayers and i am still trying for you but i cant promise anything. i don't want to be a disappointment to anyone and so i feel caught in the middle of so many things. i don't know what to do anymore. i don't remember anything in my patriarchal blessing saying anything about this but i ordered another one so i hope it gets here soon.
i love you all